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Post by The Poetic Protégée on May 5, 2006 15:13:38 GMT -5
I don't think it's possible to have an accurate psychiatric evaluation from one appointment. A diagnosis is only so good, of course, your own opinion and acceptance is much more important. Love you, Rollie.
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Post by Dances With Rolls on Jun 7, 2006 0:49:30 GMT -5
Agghh. I need anxiety meds. Either that or anti-depressants. It feels like my doctor and counciler are doing everything in their power to make it increasingly difficult. It just annoys me how people don't realize that mental disorders can't usually magically be cured by "toughing it out." I've been "toughing it out" for years, yet the panic attacks and periods of depression don't stop! This shouldn't be this complicated!
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Post by The Poetic Protégée on Jun 8, 2006 12:15:07 GMT -5
Um...Rollie, I have to say I don't agree with medication in most of these kind of situations so I'm on the side of your doctor. I don't think anyone is expecting you to be magically cured, but relying on pills isn't going to make the problem go away either. I have some idea, at least, of what you're going through, Rollie. I assure you, medication isn't the magic cure either.
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Post by The Rolling Rooster on Jun 8, 2006 19:49:16 GMT -5
Hey Rollie-
I am not sure what kind of help I can be, but I am always an ear to listen if you like. I have been through a lot of medical smeep in my short 17 years, and somedays it just doesn't get any easier.
For many years I was anorexic, and I had to conqueur that... I did, but it was certainly a hard battle to fight.
Then I was diagnosed to have an anxiety disorder and was treated for it... via medication, but I slowly got off of it and have learned how to live one moment at a time without it.
My biggest problem has been for the past 7 years and will continue to be throughout my life learning to live with my disease called POTS. The more I learn of it, the more I see it is an untreatable and lifelong struggle that I will be facing. Many days, many minutes I just want to go to the knife cupboard and grab the biggest blade I can.
I can completely relate to you in the matter of suicide. Many people view it as a "problem", but to me, it is a solution. I mean, when my eyes are pulsing so hard that all I can see is black... skewering them out with a fork sounds like a pleasant option. In the times when I feel OK (like now) I am repulsed at myself that I could ever contemplate that.
I have often brought scissors to my room to use because razorblades weren't good enough... but I have always shied away from the act itself, because of my religion, it holds me back. That is not to say it isn't hard as hell...
One of my brothers is bipolar,psychitzophrenic and has sycosis... but on the proper medication he is simply 'normal'. Though there were many frightening years when he was hearing voices and things...
My parents have been through the medical gammot...
I don't know what I am trying to get at... but I guess if anything, I mean to say, no matter how hard it gets, you are stronger than anything you face. In some instances medication can be a wonderful boost to get your brain levels where they need to be (if it is a chemical imbalance) but I for one don't take any... even for the most excrutiating of pain... simply because that is what I was taught, and I don't want to be dependant on anything but myself (personal preference entirely)
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Post by The Symbolic Sacrifice on Jun 9, 2006 3:25:00 GMT -5
Rollie, I'd love someone to give you a magic pill to make you better, but I know it won't help, I've seen what panic attacks can do to a person and believe me, medication does not work. After 16 years of watching my best friends husband dealing with them through medication, I have made I deal with him to fly halfway across Australia to confront what is causing them, but until HE takes this step we can only watch in sadness. The only thing that will work is finding the cause of them, Doctors have a VERY BAD habit of always treating the symptoms and never finding and curing the cause, whether it be physical or mental. You are such a life force, please don't buckle under the pressure of taking medication, it will just give us a weak carbon copy of the real Rollie and that is an awful waste. Keep looking until you find a Doctor who talks the talk. (cure) I know this sounds as if I'm advising you to 'tough it out' but I've seen the other course open to you, which is a life lived to half its value under the haze of medication with no cure in sight because its a lot easier for a Doctor to write a script out than to deal with the cause of the problem, and a lot easier for you to get some relief than to fight on just one more day. Please, just do me one favour, if you do take the medication, never stop trying to find the CAUSE of why you get so depressed and have these panic attacks. There is only one thing more terrifying than watching someone have a panic attack, and thats having the actual attack, my heart goes out to you Blossom ~SS~
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Post by Dances With Rolls on Jun 9, 2006 11:02:48 GMT -5
Thanks, you guys... I really do appriciate all of your advice. The thing is though, I've been dealing with this stuff in different degrees for about five years. I've tried multiple things to take the stress off... therapy, writing, painting, Tae Kwon Do... all of them help, but it always comes back. I had a major panic attack during Tae Kwon Do yesterday, and my instructor talked to me a lot about it. She deals with many issues like that, and says that I just need to find what's best for me. Meds help some people, but will do nothing for others... they just screwed with her more, and she eventually discovered an outlet in Tae Kwon Do, and something else that I wouldn't try. My mom, however, has been on an anxiety medication for a few years, and always tells me that she can't believe she waited that long to get them. People kept trying to discourage her, and she listened to them, but she only got worse despite everything she kept trying. When she finally was put on medication, her personality was not altared whatsoever; she was just able to deal with stress and anxiety without become super depressed and freaked out over it. She still gets anxious, angry, sad, etc... but not in accessive, scary amounts, and not completely randomly. I mean, a few weeks ago, I had a panic attack at school and almost started crying in the middle of my health class because I didn't finish my soup at lunch. That bothered me all day long. After the episode yesterday, I couldn't stop shaking and feeling completely weightless... it's so hard to explain... but just trust that I am going to find the best way of dealing with this for me. I don't want something that will make me worse or alter my personality, but if I am able to stay the same, silly Rollie, but am able to not stress out to the point of sobbing and shaking, and meds are the only things that work... I'm going to resort to that. I won't stop trying to find the root of the problem though, and I will continue to explore other methods of dealing with this. I just have to do what's right for me.
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Post by The Poetic Protégée on Jun 9, 2006 13:15:27 GMT -5
As long as it's right for you, Rollie, I'm sure I speak for everyone when I say we'll be one hundred percent behind you You're considering and exploring your options, that's the most important thing. You're so wonderful, Rollie, I know you can work through this. We want the best for you too.
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Post by Dances With Rolls on Jun 10, 2006 10:41:34 GMT -5
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Post by Candy Queen on Jul 19, 2006 20:16:45 GMT -5
I'm loosing my best friend, and I don't know if it's for real. I don't know what to do.... Help.
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Post by The Poetic Protégée on Jul 20, 2006 4:27:24 GMT -5
What makes you think you're losing them, Dreamer? I'll try and help if I can
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Post by Candy Queen on Jul 20, 2006 6:50:07 GMT -5
No it's only one, and it's because he said he doesn't think he can be my friend anymore because of my other friend...
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Post by The Undaunted Doña on Jul 21, 2006 3:21:18 GMT -5
Well, I will say this, Dream... if you both have been friends for a long time and are BEST friends, nothing should come between your friendship. BUT if this person decides they think they cannot be your friend anymore.. it is THIER loss! You are a very cool person, Dream.. and really nice to talk to. Just talk to him and see if there is a way you can work this thing out.
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Post by The Poetic Protégée on Jul 21, 2006 8:09:18 GMT -5
Oh dear, not one of those "I'd be friends for you if it wasn't for your other friend" situations. I agree with LadyM completely. This person should take a good look at the friendship he would be throwing away before saying he can't be friends with you. Try and talk to him, if that doesn't work then just give it some time. Sometimes people need to sort things out by themselves.
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Post by Dances With Rolls on Jul 21, 2006 14:49:51 GMT -5
Aww, Roxie, I'm sorry you're going through this. To be honest, it sounds like your friends are being a little immature. You can be friends with whomever you want, and if your friend has a problem with that, you are not at fault! I hope they wise up, but as LM said, if they throw away the friendship, it's their loss. I hope things get worked out, love! Well, I finally got to see the psychiatrist. Though there is no official diagnosis, I'm going to be treated for symptoms of anxiety, depression, and OCD. I feel like a huge weight has been lifted going to see her, and getting what I need. My mom is on meds for the same sort of things, so hopefully they'll have the same effect. Her personality is exactly the same as it was before, but not everything feels like the end of the world. I honestly think that unless people are in the situation where they need help, they can't know if meds are good or not. As I said before, people just have to figure out what's best for them. My stepdad's in a wheelchair, and my mom once used the example of someone telling her to just cope with her problems, and fix them herself... they might as well tell her husband to get up and walk. Some things cannot be fixed that easily. She has been so much happier since she got them, and regrets not getting them sooner, despite how long she tried to find the root of the problems and solve them other ways. Sorry, that was all a big jumble of thoughts... point is, I'm happy and am curious to see what will happen next. Again, as always, thanks for all of your concern and support.
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Post by The Undaunted Doña on Jul 21, 2006 19:46:13 GMT -5
I wish you the best of luck Rollie..and hope they work and you start to feel better about things really soon..
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